Intent

One of my favorite quotes is by Martha Graham:

“There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and there is only one of you in all time. This expression is unique, and if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium; and be lost. The world will not have it.

It is not your business to determine how good it is, nor how it compares with other expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open.

No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.”


I've read that you "learn to write by writing...learn to love by loving...learn to cook by cooking..." and that all we can ever do is "start where we are". This is my attempt to start where I am….in order to move towards the nagging visions in my heart and mind. I'm not even sure how to do that with a blog - - but being here beckons me - - so I am going to "keep the channel open, stop questioning and just march on".

Monday, October 26, 2009

great (great, great ?) aunt man's oatmeal bread

I read this somewhere on the internet last week
and experienced acknowledgment deep down in my soul:

“A life too easy or escapable quickly becomes meaningless.”

At the request of my cousin Jennie and friend ‘Sister Mary Catherine’, I committed to making Great Aunt Man’s homemade oatmeal bread. From start to finish, in an old – slightly rusty – hand cranked bread ‘machine’ the whole process takes about 4 hours. A quantity of time and patience that is hard to come by in our fast paced world.

I was rewarded by not taking the easy way out. Over the 4 hours my mind began to settle. I tuned into the peace of making something by hand. My body and hands felt purposeful while they cranked the bread machine and kneaded the dough. The fresh baked bread smell permeating the kitchen enveloped me in a sense of safety.

I’m going to endeavor to invest in the meandering road more often…to doing the things that require effort…and stretch me out of the comfort zone of ease and convenience.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

What an interesting story. I could smell the bread..... (Oh God do I love bread. I could live on bread and wine alone..lol!) Seriously cooking is a great passion of the Latino world as well so I identify with your story completely. A life too easy does become meaningless. That's great that you will travel the 'less traveled' road Tania. As you said, it's about the JOURNEY, and how accurate that is. May you have a wonderful less traveled journey!
Rosa

Unnamed Author. said...

I'm sure you can relate to the cooking passion. I spoke with another friend of mine who is Italian and we laughed at ourselves...we cannot make a meal for one and we cannot understand why everyone does not get that when we cook for them it means we love them...lol. Cheers to both of us enjoying and being present to the journey. Whatever is right in front of us is what needs our attention.

Anonymous said...

That is so true! Make a meal for one? What is that??? I can relate completely. Whenever I have cooked for my friends they wonder why so much food??? "It's just me" but hey I came from a houshold where you would roll out from the dinner table. Now, whenever I go to my parents for dinner, my mother serves me a portion as if I haven't eaten for a week (maybe two) and then still asks, "you want more "cause there is more you know". She also gives me a doggie bag to take home 'just in case'. (Just in case what - a disaster hits and I can't make it to the supermarket for a week? I swear the doggie bag weighs about 5pounds!)It's no wonder I suffered with my weight all my life. Yet I believe if you don't enjoy the pleasure of eating than you're not experiencing life fully. Yes cheers for enjoying life to the fullest! :P