i want someone to...

...have dinner with. I would tell you that today I read Donald Miller's Blog and that I find him interesting and funny and that he makes me think and that we should probably be friends because he makes me laugh and he wrote that he has a big kitchen that he never uses and I know I'd make good use of it. And I'd add that I found it really cool that he got to have a meal with Anne Lamott because even though I find her quirky and sometimes too liberal even for me, when I read her books I feel human, and alive, and much, much closer to God and I think she is a kindred spirit. I'd ask you how your day was, what made you pause...was there anything I can help you with. I'd ask you to hold my hand and let me know that everything is alright, that I don't have to prove my worth and it's OK to just BE. I'd tell you that Nancy said she was going to send the journal and that she is going on another trip to Europe and that when she said she missed me, my heart ached. I'd tell you Bethany called to say she was pregnant and that her and Jason might move to the East Coast again...and that I held onto that hope. I'd tell you that the sound of Amy's voice on the phone today felt like safety and that I wish she and Scott weren't so, so far away. You'd listen, knowing that things just are what they are...that it's hard to have the ones who mean the most to you be the ones who are so far away...and you'd know not to fix it, but to just sit with me - because sometimes all we need is to be understood.