sit with it

I read in a book recently - and this is a paraphrase as I don't own the book - that it's quite likely that when we experience great resistance to ideas we have and things we want to do....the resistance may be a signal that there is much positive to gain by doing said thing. Many of us give up at the first sign of anything coming against the journey we are about to begin. This is true for me - big time. The Bonnie Hunt Show was on in the background as I got ready to leave this morning. She read a passage from a book that urged the reader to do anything at all today towards that "thing" they've been avoiding. There is something that I've been wanting to learn for a while. I keep putting it off because I am a slow learner and it seemed too hard and I couldn't get myself to concentrate. Bolstered by advice from the two different sources I took the hint that today was the day. I drove to a local Panera - ordered lunch;ate lunch;balanced my checkbook;sent some text messages;listened to music on my Zune;sat and stared at all the people around me. I'd made a decision that there was no other option but for me to do this today, so I just sat and sat while on the inside the resistance had a temper tantrum. Then, when it settled down, I took out what I'd brought and did my best to take the information in and apply it, one moment at a time. On my drive home I realized I felt lighter, excited, relieved, peaceful, powerful. There indeed was much to be gained by diving into this thing I'd been avoiding and resisting. Now that I am no longer fighting with the resistance I've freed myself up to take more in. I can't wait to see what happens next.